What a wonderful wedding! Brad & Tonya I am so excited for you! You were both beaming all weekend. It was so great t o be able to be there with you to celebrate your wedding. It will probably be a while before I get to see you again but I wanted to say that it was an amazing weekend! (If I can ever figure out how to post pictures on this thing I'll put my favorite picture of teh happy couple up!)

time management

I am officially a fruitbar. I agreed to take on a second cake before I go home this weekend and I still have laundry to do. Last night I baked cake for three hours and tonight I will be decorating like mad, finishing laundy and packing my suitcase. I have to admit that it doesn't sound like much but I'll be decorating for at least four hours and I realized this morning that there aren't very many groceries in the house but I am not going to get a chance to go get any. Poor G is going to have to fend for himself.

I am really looking forward to tomorrow. I fly out at 6pm and I'm home by 8-8:30. I can not wait!!!! Family weddings are always a blast and I am so excited to see everyone. I wish Gordon was coming with me but he is staying in Halifax and working on the basement. One of these days it will be finished....

Going crazy...who wants to join me!

ARGH!!!!!!!

I think I just need to bury my head in a pillow and scream. I am frustrated, I feel fat and I am bored. Not a good combination when your emotional levels are in flux. Is it any one thing...probably not but I still just want to scream. My memory is falling me at every turn and it is incredible frustrating. I am known for my great memory and I can't remember if I mailed something last week or not. I can't remember names, or conversations...it is beyond frustrating.

Honestly, I am very grateful for the miracle that is going on within me but I can't wait until October.

Clearing out the shrubs

So I'm a movie star...we'll at least I'm a Telethon star...I'm being used for my bump in a donor recognition peice. We taped it yesterday and it went really well and the best part was that I got to leave work a few minutes early. Good thing because traffic was horrendous. The Canada USA hockey game took place here in town last night, which made getting out of town a nightmare. Great game, we couldn't get tickets but saw most of the game at home.

Finally got home and got to work on our front yard. We were getting some pretty dirty looks from people walking by who must have known the former owner. We had to rip out the front flower bed because it was up over the siding and causing issues in the basement and I'm sorry but I very strongly disliked the massive bush that was taking over the flower bed in the middle of the lawn. Hopefully I can get the beds put back in place by Friday and I can plant some flowers this weekend. I think it will look a lot better when we're done...and besides it’s our house now. I shouldn't feel like I have to keep things the same just so the neighbours will like us.

I guess taht should lead me to a deeper inside look of why I actually care what the neighbours think but my brain is simply too tired.

What a great weekend! Janice was in town and I got to visit with her quite a bit. I got to see her band play (Gold Standard, Best Overall Band!!!) and I was so proud of my little bassoon (sp?) player!!

I feel so guilty that I have missed so much of her life because I chose to move away to go to school. I treasure the time we do get to have together. Saturday we went shopping and then J and Sarah came out to the house for a visit with G. We played a bit of Wii and then I had to get them back. Sunday was a little empty because I was getting used to seeing my girl every day. Oh well...three weeks and I will be home for a weekend. I can't wait.

Gordon has been working really hard on the basement renovation. The basement has been totally gutted and now, hopefully, it will start to be put back together. It's going to be such an improvement! We'll also keep more heat in this coming winter as the basement will be much more air tight and have better insulation.

And now back to work...

The rain...

Today should be an exciting day because it is Friday and my little sister is in town. I'm really excited that I get to see her. We had dinner together last night and I am going to take her shopping this afternoon and out to dinner again. Tomorrow morning I get to see her band play. I've never seen her play basoon. It will be great. We had a good dr. appointment on Wednesday. Pumpkin's heart was going at about 160 minutes. I gained 6lbs (have to do something about that!)

Yet the rain outside is perfect for my mood. A friend who was due around the same time as me has lost her baby. My heart is breaking for them.

We are thinking of you...

The Cord

We are connected,
My child and I,
byAn invisible cord
Not seen by the eye.

It's not like the cord
That connects us 'til birth
This cord can't been seen
By any on Earth.

This cord does it's work
Right from the start.
It binds us together
Attached to my heart.

I know that it's there
Though no one can see
The invisible cord
From my child to me.

The strength of this cord
Is hard to describe.
It can't be destroyed
It can't be denied.

It's stronger than any cord
Man could create
It withstands the test
Can hold any weight.

And though you are gone,
Though you're not here with me,
The cord is still there
But no one can see.

It pulls at my heart
I am bruised...I am sore,
But this cord is my lifeline
As never before.
I am thankful that God
Connects us this way
A mother and child
Death can't take it away!

~Author Unknown

You are in our thoughts and prayers. There is no pain on earth like that of losing a child. And people can not comprehend the impact that it has on you. Your child will always be with you and one day you'll get to hold your precious angel in your arms. We love you and are thinking of you and I know that there is nothing that we could say that would make you feel better. So just know we are for you if, when you need us.